My Life

2008-10-27T15:44:00.004+08:00

I am half-way through for O levels. Still got a few more papers to go before i can enter the freedom zone. So far i could say i can do all the papers excep for Maths. Can never do well for that paper. Hoping for at least a D7 at least for that subject. Hopefully i would pass my O levels and continue my way to a polytechnic or no other choice to ITE. Take up a office skill course. And start working at some compnay. Probably in ICA. Hahahaha. I am already qualified for it okay with my N level certificate. But with pathetic starting pay lah. But i will try upgrading myself.

InsyaAllah.

For the pass few days, my relationship with sayang has not been good. Fighting day after day. Especially on that faithful friday night. I don't wish to remember that night. Too much pain. But as usual. We got things as they were. No more fighting for us. But anything can happen in future. There is always ups and downs in life. Hopefully this relationship would last.

InsyaAllah.

I don't remember which day but me and Nazree headed down to Bugis Junction to savour JCO's donuts and drinks. Just spending time together ever since i started exams. We had a nice time. Taking pictures, joking, talking and of course eating and drinking. I was bullied as usual. Got used to it.

So on the 25th of October, Saturday, It was his birthday. We had a slight arguement when we met but cooled off after a while. A simple celebration for him. I bought a cake. Truffle. Hehehe. Laki bini suka makan chocolate. We celebrated somewhere. Not mentioning where. I made a birthday video for him. Wanted to watch it wih his laptop but unfortunately i saved the wrong video in my Mp3. So frustrated. All my plans were ruined. But luckily the cake cutting was ablr to happen. We ate only two slices and gave to a charity in yishun to some people. Hahahaha. Then off we went merayaping somewhere in Singapore.

I am starting work soon. My manager who happens to be my uncle is calling me back to work. He needs more manpower. It seems that i will be staring work even before exams are over. My parents have given me the green light. So i guess it should be ok. Looks like freedom is coming near already.

till my next post....

2008-10-17T12:14:00.006+08:00

My science practical was a total mess up!!! The Physics component can be done. As for the Chemistry component i did all the test but i could not predict the stupid salt. In the end i put Lead Nitrate. Well if it is fated thay i am only going to end up with 1 mark for the component that i am fine with it as i know i did my best for it. Hehehehe.

As of 15/10/2008, I am now officially SoulQuest Consultant Services Head Crew. Hehehehe. And i am also the Personal Assistant to the boss who happens to be my sayang, Mohammad Nazree. Hehehe. I designed the crew tag and it ended up to a satisfactory level. It was not easy designing it okay! Further more a lot of work needs to be done just for one tag. So if you guys out there do have any events that requires a host do contact the company. We also provide services for organizing motivational camps and we do studio recording for those who think you got the talent of singing. Hahaha. All you guys have to do is drop an email to the company at soulquestconsvcs@gmail.com or you guys can visit our website at the link. We do look forward to helping you guys out for your events.

Company logo..

The tags that i designed

This a promotion okay! Just helping out a bit. Doing my part also for the company.

I am not able to attend Fityan Assyakirin's Raya Bonanza this coming Sunday since my parents won't let me go due EXAMS!!!

Arghhhhhhh!!!!

It will be a big disappointment for the committee. But i do really hope that they are able to understand my situation.
We held our final meeting on wednesday. Was a very informal meeting as only the crew was present. Our new YDO, Ustaz Darwis was not able to attend. So we treated the room like a playground especially our dear President, Fahmi. Running here and there. Cracking jokes along the meeting. Taking pictures here and there. Talking about pictures, i do have a few of the pictures.... No offence guys...

2008-10-14T18:31:00.003+08:00

I am back after my Hari Raya mood for like two weeks i guess?? I have to switch my concerntration to EXAMS now!!! It's two days away to my first O'level paper and i am all set i guess. It is kind of unlucky for us O'level students as we fall sick easily nearer to the exams. For instance i had flu last week and today i am caught with fever. How unlucky I am. It's a very tight schedule for me. Below is my exam schedule. Straight papers.

16/10/2008- Science Paper 5 (Practical)

20/10/2008-Science Paper 3 (Chemistry)

21/10/2008- Computer Studies & English Paper 1/2

24/10/2008- Mathematics Paper 1

28/10/2008- History Elective

29/10/2008- Science Paper 2 (Physics)

30/10/2008- Mathematics Paper 2

03/11/2008- Social Studies

05/11/2008- Malay Paper 1/2

11/11/2008- Science Paper 1 (MCQ)

Well that's how tight my exam schedule is. Not forgetting the day before my 2nd paper I have Fityan Assyakirin's Raya Bonanza to attend to. I am in the comittee.Head of F&B. I got to strain everything in my head by saturday night. So i won't panic on monday. Looks like there will be sleepless nights for me in the coming weeks.

And to Nazree please bear with me this upcoming weeks. I hope you understand how it is like sitting for an important exam.

Guess i won't blog till the end of exams.

I change my blog song AGAIN. Hehehehe. Stuck to the song. Enjoy!

2008-10-03T23:56:00.003+08:00

SELAMAT HARI RAYA

MAAF ZAHIR DAN BATIN

I would like to take this opportunity to wish all muslims in the world Selamat Hari raya Aildilfitri. I know it's kind of a bit late to wish but it is the thoughts that counts. At least i get to wish everyone.

Saya menyusun sepuluh jari memohon maaf andai ada tersalah silap dari segi percakapan atau perbuatan. Halalkan segala makan minum saya.

Hehehehe.. A proper way indeed.

So eve of Hari Raya was very hectic. Lots of stuff needs to be done in the house. For example cleaning up my room again. Pack all my books into boxes that mum bought at IKEA, changing my bedsheet to new ones. And i so do not like the colour of my new bedsheet as it does not match my room. So totally out of the range. My room is has peach and off-white walls with pink curtains. But my bedsheet is brown with golden yellow skirtings. Isn't it out of the colour range??? My mum really don't know how to match. When will i have my dream bedroom with lavender coloured walls. FAT HOPE!!! Ok i dragged too much. I cleared up a few cupboards, scrub the ceillings, vacumn the whole house and help change the living room curtain. Very tiring indeed. But during our last break fast it was a feast. There was lontong, ketupat, sambal goreng, ayam merah, rendang and my favourite sambal udang.. Yummy!

The Sinar Lebaran this year was total CRAPZ!!!! Not nice. I prefer the past few years edition. The comedy part is the only ones that is great. Hahahaha. Should write in to the producer huh? Like real only shika.

So i received and send Hari Raya messages through SMS. And the most that touched my heart is by my sayang Nazree. This is how it goes,

Takbir bergema menandakan akhirnya Ramadhan.

Menjelang Syawal tanda kejayaan.

Sempena kejayaan dalam dunia baru,

I menyusun sepuluh jari mohon ampun dan maaf

andai selama kita bersama

ada terkasar bahasa,

tersinggng perasaan

dan sebagainya.

Semoga perhubungan kita kekal

hingga ke destinasi yang diimpikan.

Cinta dan kasih sayang i

hanya untuk diri U.

Muackz!

I guess i can touch some of you guys out there. It's the best that i received. Not because of he is my boifey but the true meaning of the words.

Hehehehehe..

Pagi raya was ok. The whole family woke up to go Solat raya. Luckily we made it on time to the mosque we often go at Merchant Road. Someone was angry at me so earky in the morning since i didn't reply any of his SMS since i did not bring along my handphone. Had apologise to him again. This year the theme was GOLD. I look freaking FAT in the outfit! The colour does not really go with me. And mum as always keep adding salt to the wound. She wouldn't stop! So same old ritual of asking for forgiveness happens. Then headed to nenek's house. And many more houses. Reached home around 10+ at night. And i end up not going to school the next day. Hehehehehe.. I bet many muslim students didn't attend school. Hahahahahaha....

So like i promise. A Hari Raya mini Photo Album. Enjoy!

The GOLD family..

Cuzzies..

Aqeela wearing baju kurung for the first time.

Orang nak siap, dia pon nk ikot..

part of the Hjh Aprayen Family....

There are more photos but this is the best that i can find. I will update more soon. Till den.

2008-09-29T23:02:00.004+08:00

Ramadhan is coming to it's end. Left with only one day to the long awaited Hari Raya Aidilfitri. Seemed do fast towards the end of the month but so slow in the beginning. Hahahahha. I really hope that i am able to meet Ramadhan again next year.

Insya Allah.

My preparations for this is much simpler than the previous years as not much need to be done. I actually cleaned my own room for the first time after so many years leaving everything to my maid. Sometimes i have to also think that i am all grown up already. And soon to get married.Hahaha. I can't rely on my maid all the time. I realize that there were so many things that was hidden in my room. Like there was my used-to-be favourite pair of earings, my conatct lens casing and more... For awhile i felt satisfied cleaning up my room as things go to where i want it. Hehehehe. Should do this more often. Hehehehe.

I feel like i am slacking in my studies. I sometimes don't feel like going to school but i still study at home ok! I will have a hard time trying to get up in the early morns. Felt like there were weights pulling me down when i try getting up and i get back to my sleep. I thought of taking the study leave and stay at home study. Think twice i may not able to concerntrate properly at home since there is so much distraction. Hmmm... Someone advice me please!!!!

I totally fell in love withmy blog song that i have change now. It's about a guy who fell a sweet looking girl. Willing to wait for her to open up her heart for him. But the bad part in the middle of the chorus is that he asked her to break-up with her current boifey and say I LOVE YOU to him.. How cruel is that. Doesn't really make sense. Hahahahahahaha...

P.U.S.P.A

ST12

kau gadisku yang cantik
coba lihat aku disini

di sini ada aku yang cinta padamu

kau gadisku yang manis

coba lihat aku disini

di sini ada aku yang sayang padamu

* walau ku tahu bahwa dirimu

sudah ada yang punya

namun aku tunggu sampai kau mahu

reff:woo woo jangan jangan kau menolak cintaku

jangan jangan kau ragukan hatiku

ku kan selalu setia menunggu

untuk jadi pacarmu

woo woo jangan jangan kau tak terima cintaku

jangan jangan kau hiraukan pacarmu

putuskanlah saja pacarmu

lalu bilang I LOVE U padaku

repeat *repeat reff [2x]

And finally I am presenting to you guys the love of my life. The guys who i have hidden from people all this while. Not that i want to show off but i have found the perfect time to reveal who is he. Please don't misunderstand.

MOHD NAZREE

Till i post again after Hari Raya. Take care people..

2008-09-22T11:16:00.006+08:00

I am back again after disappearing for a while. Been busy with exams. PRELIMS of course. Had a bit of improvements compared to my MYE results. Hahahah. At least it shows that i am putting in more effort. Hehehe.

I feel like i am being used as a spare tyre by my friends. They will only find me if only they do not have the company of their VERY close friends. If not they don't even bother to actually ask me to go somewhere with them. I am always feeling that i am being left out by people whom i call them my FRIENDS. Friends don't do this to friends. If they really cherish their friendship with me, they won't do this to me. They will talk to me about everything. Doesn't matter if it is personal or top secret or whatever it is. This is so unfair for me. I treat them equally and this is what i get??? You people thought yopu were lonely. I am even more lonely lah ehk. Sesiapa yang terasa too bad lah kan. I had enough of all this crapz and bullshit. Don't make me change myself just because of a bunch of you out there. This is just the beginning stage of our friendship although we have been friends for like so many years. I hope you guys realize how you are treating me.

So i don't really have much to say. Nak cerita pon nanti panjnag sangat takut korang semua tidur pulak. So as i always do i will post of LOTS of pictures in exchange for my stories.

.....PRESENTING.....

......CHIKA'S BLOG MINI PHOTO ALBUM....

THEME 1: COMMUNITY WORK WITH HWA CHONG INSTITUITION.

A welcoming talk by Ustaz Nazree

Cleaning an elderly house.. Rajin anak mak...

In another elderly house..

Washing toilet... Semangat budak-budak nie...

Sental baik-baik tu.... Hahahhaha.

"USTAZ" Fahmi giving a talk to the students..

Me. Hazwin . Fique

yum yum...

Helping out a bit.. Hahahaha... No gimmick ok!

Me running to fique but it was too late as the photo was snapped already...

Giving residents porridge...

Mat pokok lah seh Ustaz... Hahahaha.. Jangan marah

THEME 2: JB OUTING 21-09-08

Next top model katekan.... Wakakakaka...

Soon.. In about 2 years i guess???

Look at how much food we are going to eat.... Delicious...

My sister caught me doing this to the little devil...

The cucu's and children of my nenek...

Part-time job... hahahaha...

When you miss someone badly....

This is how it looks like when siblings fight!

Nothing better to do...

Proud presenters of The M Suite Hotel...

I got bored waiting for my ride...

Happy family....

End of the mini photo album... See you readers again in my upcoming 2008 Hari Raya album. Hehehehe....

2008-09-05T13:17:00.004+08:00

Yeah! Happy Ramadhan to all the Muslims around the world. Semoga kita diberkati dibulan yang mulia dan suci. InsyaAllah. I am glad i am still able to meet this ramadhan again.

Ramadhan just only started for like 5 days and all my baju raya almost siap already. Hahaha.. Kiasu rite?? This year i have 3 baju raya. Cannot make so many since i will sitting for exams the 2nd week of october. Which means i can't go raya outing!!!!! It's OK. Sacrifice this year. Me and sayang are planning to use gold this year. Hehehe. Plan awal-awal. Setting a date adside to go out raya with him before my O's start. The least i can do. Since i won't be seeing him for a few weeks during the O's.

Not much already... Will amazed you guys (like real) with a few pictures....

Silat Showcase Fiesta Keluarga 2008

A mark of respect for the GOH.

The GERAK GRASIO team.

The GERAK SALAM pair.. That's me... Hehehe...

The SILAT PENGANTIN trio....

Currently I am addicted to this two beverages...

All thankz to sayang i am addicted to this drink....

Can only drink with sayang's permission.... Usually i share with him...

I ate this at Bugis Food Junction.. It's Strawberry Milk Ice.. The before and after... Hehehehe...

All nice and sweet looking.....

Gross rite????

And lastly.....

Menitis airmataku kerana keharuan sebuah pertemuan...

2008-08-24T08:40:00.004+08:00

Here i am on a super early sunday morning blogging. I can't get back to sleep after waking up sayang. This is so not me getting up so early in the morning and not able to sleep back. Is something wrong with me??? i say i have to blame him for making me wake up so early and he not attending his plans after i woke him up. Hmmm... Never mind close one eye for now. Better not do it again ok sayang??

The cute chubby niece of mine... Herlyn Inshirah.

It was suppose to be a peace sign but i guess that was her peace sign.. So cute rite??

see this cute chubby little girl on top??? She is the girl that i took care since she is two months old and now she doesn't want to play with me when i met her yesterday. All she has to say when i hold her hand or want to carry " tak nak". How disappointed i was when she said that. She used to be very attached to me last time. Luckily on the way back home from the kenduri dad drove his bus. I sat behind her and tried my luck to play with her and it worked! Hehehe.. Playing peek-a-boo with her. Talking with her. I ask her to say 'aunty shika' and this how it sounded like 'a-e-e-ka'. She only like to take the front and back consonants. But it's ok. As long as she pronounce it. Hahahahaha... She getting really heavy and more chubbier. If only sayang was there to see her, i bet her pipi also kena attacked by him. She also got the extra pillow or bantal around her ( only certain people know what bantal is. Hehehe...) I like to see her walk and run. So cute. Her run is like walking very fast for us. And she laughs super loud. The whole block can hear her i guess. Hahahaha... Such an adorable little monster....

I have got plans to go out with sayang today since his plans failed. Still cannot decide where to go except for De'Aman performance at night which is the closing activity for today's outing. We always have this problem of not knowing where to go whenever we have date. In the end we would go to the same place. Hahahaha... If anybody got any suggestions or favourite hang out do inform me please and personally via email. I dunnoe HIM to know it. Hahahahaha....

Title: Remeber me?

Author: Sophie Kinsella

I am currently stuck to this book. It is about a girl who lost her memory. She had an accident when she was 25 and woke up when she was 28. She doesn't remember anything for the past 3 years that has happen to her. She is married to a gorgeous real estate agent, Eric, whom she doesn't recognise and her bestfriends dumped her. She is now known as the bitch-boss-from-hell. And she also found out that in the two years she was married she was having an affair with her husbands architect,Jon. I have not finish up the book yet but will update as soon as possible once i have finish it.

Sayang is really pissed offf when he sees me reading books. He thinks i am pretending to read. But NO WAY! Once i am stuck reading i won't stop till i finish the book.

Ok i think enough of the early blogging. Time hit the sheets back. I got to get some rest. My head is killing me at times.

Till i update more posts.

2008-08-22T22:37:00.003+08:00

Whoa!!! This blog is really dusty.. Berabok siot!!! Hahahaha. Couldn't really find the time to update this blog. So many things to say but too little time to say it. Hahahaha.. All thankz to my school hours and school work for not letting me blog and also my laziness as per normal.

Since i have too many things to say i guess i won't say it. I will just update a few or LOTS of photo..(and i mean LOTS) I don't wish to have people to fall asleep while reading my ever long posts.. Hehehehe..

Lets start of the mini photo album with National Day Celebrations@ BLSS 2008. After so long, finally my class, 5NA1, got the most Patriotic Class award for upper sec normal category. What a lucky year huh??

5NA1 '08

My class mascot. F1 racer...

My class T-shirt. Thankz to Pattama for DRAWING it....

Me, Amy and Erah with Karthik.

Bunch of happy gals together...

With our GREEN souveneir...

Secondly, my dear sistax AYME 17th mini birthday celebration. She was taken by surprise when we brought in a cake for her. Once in a lifetime celebrations with your bestfriends..

Her cake with melted candles... So sorry sis...

The wordings really bad... Stewpid aunty.. Dunnoe how to do...

A handmade puch from me to ayme....

Thirdly, FIESTA KELUARGA or FAMILY DAY @ ASSYAKIRIN. Some random pictures...

Me & Rossyafiqah

Me & small Syafiqah

Look how cute she can be!!!

Me & FUAD RAHMAN... So excited.. Fell in love with his song Bayu..

The BULAT'S.. Me, Rossyafiqah & Kak Yati

Yurizki, Me & Suhana... Fityan Members from KRX...

Izzati, Me & Syafiqah... Silat Mates...

Shabby, Me & Ayme.... Gila-gila as always..

Me & Syafiq... Look how chubby he is..

Me & Hafiz....

Me & the cute little innocent gerl... So cute but really heavy!!!

Fourthly, some random photos that i have taken. It's either i find it interesting or just want to put up.. Hahahaha....

My teddy... Suppose to be hang on my handphone but i took it off to smell someone's perfume...

A close-up...

My FAVOURITE!!!! Addicted to their Chocolate Frappe Or Signature Hot Chocolate...

Hehehehe... studying at Starbucks Coffee... With HIM!!

When Mangkok meets Sendok with a camera in hand...

Nothing better to do while waiting....

Lastly.. photos of CHIKA!!!!

It's Ayme's fingers.... Cool rite???

With my sister's geeky specs... Very big indeed...

till i got some story to share....

Two months and still going strong.....

2008-08-06T21:02:00.005+08:00

I am now addicted the novel Ayat-ayat Cinta. Been reading it the pass few days. It has been two days and i am already at the center of the book. Another half to the end of the book. The story line is a bit different from the movie. Reading this book also helps me in learning a few new arabic words. An advantage there. Hehehe. There is also some islamic facts in the book which is also an advantage. Although i have not finished the book yet, i assume that this book is going to be a reading experience for me. It has stories of love and islam and also learning a new language. I highly recommend this book to you guys if you guys can understand the malay language. They do not have it in english.. Or do they???

So addicted to this book for now although the movie already "basi"....

I was back in school. Was on MC for a day. My ankle was swollen. Everybody was asking if i was alright or not. I am fine for god sake and i can still walk. Alhamdullilah...
Slacked a lot in school today. I did not study anything at all. Most of my teachers were not in school. We had free periods most of the time. Instead of revising, i took the time to read the novel. Hehehehe.. Too addicted to it already. Had computer studies remedial straight after school. Combined class with 5/2 since Mrs Lim-Koh was on course. Cam whore with amy and erah in the lab. Nothing better to do. After school headed to Gek Poh to get some stuff there and home sweet home. Slacked again at home. Continue with my reading. Hehehehe... Took a very short nap. And i mean very short. Like 15 mins only. Headed to Jurong Point around 6+ to meet up with sayang. Accompany him to get his perfume since it was running low. He wanted to change to another fragrance but i said NO! I like him using FCUK. Somehow addicted to it. Hehehehe... He got a free t-shirt along with the perfume. Eventually he got the t-shirt from the previous purchase so he gave me it to me. It was damn huge! Like pyjamas. Heheheh... Anyway thank you sayang. Now we have the same t-shirt. Hehehe...

Mum return home with lots of food. There was pizza and donuts. I saw my favourite oreo donut when my devil brother took it away. Mum bought two of it. So i thought of taking 1 then he shouted at me. Screaming at him in the kitchen to let me have 1. So fed-up with him everyone was being fucked upside down by me. Slammed my door and turn on the music to the maximum. Really fed-up with him. He never wants to share with me. Always ask me to buy him stuffs but never want to share. Only thinks of himself. One stingy boy. Never mind. Siap ko besok pagi. Aku tak rase ko nak makan tu donut lagi....

Humph!!!!!

Following are pictures that i cam whore during Computer studies remedial....

When Sendok & Mangkok pose....

Happy frens....

It's Sendok's finger....

Trying to be sweet as always.....

I was happily typing when they snap this picture...

Serious with work...

till i post again.....

2008-08-05T20:11:00.007+08:00

OK i am back after a week this blog is being abandon. My daily schedule does not permit me to blog or i am just lazy to blog. Hahahaha.

So there has been some dispute over my tagboard. Firstly i am APOLOGIZING to all who is involve in the tagboard talk. And i mean everybody. And i am also pleading to everybody that if you got something to say about my posts or unhappy about something please send me an email. Don't know my email? It's written on my blog at m profile... or if you are blind enough not to find it this is my email: mizconfuzed_91@hotmail.com
I am pleading to you guys do send it to my email. I don't wish to create another dispute here. It's not nice to let people know you are argueing in your own blog. I seek your co-operation please.

Usually i would re-cap my life. But since it has been a week long i don't think you guys want to read that much and i kind of forgot what actually happen. HEhehe. I am just going to upload some pictures. So BEWARE! This post is going to contain lots of Pictures.... Hehehehehe...

on with the pictures.....

The following are pictures when i meet this sendok in combine humanities lesson. Kebetulan cikgu tak datang..... Case takde keje... :)

I know what she is doing... Biar tanggung dosa sendiri... Hahaha...

Beloh's as usual...

She loves GREEN. I love PURPLE.

Beloh's again i action...

The following are during Band Investiture 2008... Not much....

My French Horn Section...

2007/2008 Librarians...

Librarians Again....

Me & Fizah... She gave me that flower... Sweet rite???

The gifts that i receive during the farewell party..

The following are taken during a family outing to Johor Bahru...

The asam pedas that we ate... Very Yummy!! The fish very big...

Promoting the asam pedas gravy....

Durian Fiesta!!!! Very superb!!!

And finally.... Pictures of me..... :)

ok.. end of the pictures...
till i post again...
insyaAllah....

2008-07-26T11:38:00.004+08:00

I have been think of wearing 'Purdah' lately. I simply do not know why. Dah tergerak kot hati ni nk pakai. hahahaha. Maybe i don't want people to see me. Only that special man who is going to legally be my husband is able to see me. Well asked sayang his opinion on me wearing 'Purdah'. He was against it at first. Then don't know why he suddenly say this,

sayang:

Period antara tunang till nikah ah pakai

me:

Knape mesti within this period?? Why not after getting married ??

sayang:

Kerana org lain tk tgk tunangan orang.. Hanya dah bersuami, baru lah orang boleh melihat..

i don't really get what he is trying to say. But slowly i think i will understand. Hahahaha. It takes time to understand something properly ok. Hahahaha.

Anybody got any comments or personal opinion???

Direct to me please...

i guess i got the idea of wearing purdah from aishah.

hahahah. Crapz..

My innocent look wearing purdah... Heheheh..

Innocent kan muke??

RE-CAP.....

Friday
Morning school as per normal. Got my combine humans CA4 papers back. Did not fair so well this time. Most of the class i should say. Hehehe. luckily Miss Azlin never say anything. Hahaha. Did a lab activity today durign Physics. Not bad either. Can manage. So walked home slowly after school. It was raining and freaking cold. It was freaking cold the whole day. Wash up and attacked the computer. Then at 3+ went to school again for investiture rehersal. It drag till about 6. I was damn late already. Suppose to knock off at 5.30. If i know i would not have come since it's the same procedure every year. Made my shoulder ache only. Hehehe. Rushed home quickly. Changed and off i went to the mosque. Listen to kuliah remaja all alone since nobody could accompany me. Went home with sayang. Jalan at JP for a while and home sweet home. At home me and my sis dah buang tebiat. We were pretending to be aishah's clone by putting on purdahs. hahaha. It was fun though. Hehehe. So this girl, Yurizki, from KRX camp was msging me. Been asking about Naz all the way. Aku layankan ajer. Mungkin dia syiok pat Naz tu. Hahaha.

Today

Woken up by sayang's msg. Bath, breakfast and attacked the computer till now. Planning to meet up with syang after his soccer game. If cancelled more better. Can spend more time with him. heheh. Been praying hard since just now that it would rain so i can meet up with my sayang. Hehehehe.

I miss him badly. Although we met yesterday. It wasn't enough for me as it was just a short while. Tak puas lepaskan rindu. Hehehehe.

Till i post again.

2008-07-24T17:27:00.000+08:00

Thanks to all the people who are gave me their comments and advice personally. I salute you guys. Hehehehe. Though i am hoping someone would give the advice but till now i am still waiting. Never mind. Maybe that person just got nothing to say. Hmmmm... Kecewa hatiku.. Hahahaha... Jiwang siot. Hehehehe..

So i came across a picture of my niece today. I just couldn't believe how much she has grown. It has been months since i last saw her. She has grown so much. To be more precise more chubbier. She wasn't that chubby when i last babysit her. I also heard stories that she is getting more nakal nowadays. Babies growing up. So cute. Can't wait to have my own. But as people always say studies come first. Hehehe. True enough !! I still got a long way to think about babies now although i love them so dearly. Hehehehe.

look how chubby she is now. isn't she cute???

Inshirah so cute.....

presenting my life as of 240708

Since today is thursday so it's late day for school. I woke up early today. Usually i woke up 7.20 on thursdays but as for today i woke up around 6.45. I took my time to dress up. Hehehehe. Then i give a wake up call to sayang as usual. Off i went to school. In school everybody was asking about my condition and i have to repeat the same line over and over again. Dah hafal dialogue pon. So during CS happy2 do some work sekali bocor seh skirt. And it was recess after that. I had to skip recess to clean it up and end up i ate the bread that i brought from home since there isn't any time left. No remedials for today. It was cancelled. Hehehehe. So happy. I walked home slowly. Reached home had maggi mee for lunch then wash up and hit the homework yang berlambak. Slowly do till finish and here i am blogging after finishing my homework. hehehehe. Got to study for my test tomorrow. But later though. I need to relax my mind. Hehehe

Miss my sayang badly. If only i didn't have this sakit perut and the lots of homework, i think i can go meet him already. hmmm... I guess i have to wait till there is time...

till we meet again.....

Jauh di sudut hatiku

inginku teriak

AKU CINTAKAN MU!!!!!

2008-07-23T17:45:00.000+08:00

This post is mainly about me letting everything out. I don't care about whoever i am going to mention in here. Let them know what they have done wrong towards me.
REALIZE PEOPLE!!!!

Is it the middle-child syndrom that is hitting me now?? I feel like as if i am being hit now. SO FRUSTATED to the max!!!!!!! Its always me that is being picked on. How unlucky i am to be born as the middle child. I am thankful that i am being born into this world but not as a middle-child. There is so many things that i just can't do or don't seem right into people's eyes. I am doing all the things that aprents should be proud of but instead i got one very nice scolding for each of it. Like going to masjid. Is it wrong in the first place???? Salah ke pergi ke rumah Allah??? My sister can go out till late night with her friends and my parents can keep quiet. I go to masjid for meetings and events & they are scolding and prohibiting me from going again. Shouldn't it be the opposite?? I have funny parents in this house.

As for silat. Dad wants to tear my uniform since he says its not necessary anymore for me to go for silat.
OVER MY DEAD BODY!!!!
I paid the uniform and insurance all by myself. Except for my groinguard which mum paid for me. The rest all i paid myself. Aku tak pernah susahkan dia pon for payments. I got bronze for my 1st competition also he don't look that proud. He just see my medal and walk away. Never even congratulate me. Is it that hard for my parents to be proud of me??

Even in band. I don't see them coming for any of my performances. I know they may not have the time but at least just say something nice that you cannot make it ar. That's all that i ask for you. For your support in everything that i am doing. I can see i am getting support from other people like my sister, my besties and my sayang. I don't see any words of encouragement from you guys. I am kind of upset with this. Parents not supporting their child emotionally.... I am feeling like as if my parents heck care about my well-being. They also don't to seem really care whether i am sick to the max or not.

Any comments from my dear readers please direct it to me personally ok.

Moving on to re-cap...

I woke normally to go to school today. I was raining a bit heavy. I reached school just on time. Hehehehe. I felt the pain in my stomach already. Sat through reading period, sat for my history CA4 ( by this period i am really in pain already), then to MT and lastly PE where i really cannot tahan.I called home to ask my mum pick me up but she refused to. Now you see why i am writing such a thing as above. Even dad not picking me up. End up i have to go home alone. The office told me that they talked to my mum and she granted permission that i can go home alone. At this point i felt like as if i was a nobody to them. Nobody wants to pick me up. How sad can that be right?? So i reached home i wanted to eat rice sekali when dad started his lectures as above with me, i got no appetite to eat the rice that i already prepare and just ate bread. Totally no mood to eat. Just put the rice one side and let my maid clear it. Dad continue lecturing me and the whole house also kena lecture by him. I walked into my room and shut my ears and the door. Jumped onto my bed and let my tears fall. I just can't stand all this anymore. It's totally unfair for me and others. Because of me, everybody in the house got a nice lecture from him. So i slept through the afternoon so as to avoid the pain. I can't sit properly or it will be more painful. I can only lie down or stand. Can't walk that much. Even when i am using this computer i am lieing down like superman. Hehehehe. The only way where i can blog. Hehehehe.
Luckily my sayang was there to actually ask my condition. Very caring indeed. He even offered to pick me up from school just now but i don't want to trouble him. Thanks sayang for your attention. Really appreciate it. This is i love you so much. You are very caring and i can trust you to take good care of me in time to come.

meet again in the next post.

2008-07-22T20:45:00.000+08:00

I simply just can't resist listening to babies and small little kids crying. They are a pain to my ears. This is because i like kids so much. I can't bear to see them not being happy. That's what every kid should be. Happy always. This is the time in their life where they can be happy and play around. Parents should understand that their kids are growing up and are still learning and adapting to life. Although we need to instill discipline in their life that does not mean that we need to restrict them from doing what kids like. Come on lah. They are just kids. We can't treat them like adults. They are not mature yet you know unless they are the weird type of kid. Hahaha. This is my opinion on how kids. I have been seeing parents letting their children crying so loudly in public. Don't they feel the shame??? What would people say about them of not being a good parent and making the child being a nuisance to the public by making people's ears irritated by their screams. I am never bringing up my kid this way in future. I know what's best for them. Never raise your voice instead talk nicely. I am sure the kid will listen to you. If you got the stubborn kid then use some bad examples that may occur to them in future if they were to carry on with their mistake. I am sure hati diarang akan tergerak. Hehehe. I am sounding like a counsellor now. Hahaha. All this parenting stuff. I know i can be a good mother to my children in future. Hehehe.

InsyaAllah.

To the life re-cap section next...

I was on MC today. I can't move my whole body this morning. My stomach was in pain. I kept running to the toilet to do you know what although i was in pain. It was a total of 2 times i went to the toilet. First at around 5 am and the second at 6.20 am like that. I couldn't tahan anymore so i called dad to inform him i was not coming for school. So i continued my sleep back although i was still in pain. I woke at again at 7.30 to give wake up call to my sayang. Slept back again. Woke up again at around 8.15. Sms sayang and skali he reply that he also just woke up. He slept back when i wake him up earlier. Then he was not felling well. Decided to take MC too since he is having the flu. So we pakat to go doctor together. Hehehe. Isn't it cool to go to the doctor together with your loved ones??? Hahahaha. Once in a lifetime.

So went to Clementi Polyclinic. It took us about 1 hour ++++ to actually consult the doctor. Even sayang fell asleep while waiting. So after the consultation we went to makan since we felt hungry. Then headed to JE to print out some things for sayang's cousin. We then pass it to her at Jalan Besar Stadium. We headed for Bugis next to go to to visit this school building since sayang needed to settle some things there. Hehehe. Bought donuts at J. CO and sat by esplanade and enjoy them. Was disturbed by these 3 little rats as we were enjoying the donuts. I guess they also wanted some. We then headed back to Bugis to get some Murtabak for sayang's family. His sister was very cute when she spelled Murtabak. It was 'Metabak'. I was laughing out my ass when i read the msg. I was kind of cute you know. Hahahaha. No offence little girl k. Hahaha. Bought some cream puffs to be brought home for my family. Then home sweet home. And here i am blogging. Hehehehehe. I think i can find time now to blog everyday. Hehehehe.

After I visited this particular school just now, sayang said why don't i sign up for a diploma down there if i don't make it to poly. Although the fees can be expensive, but the time frame is shorter. It's about 1 year +++. Hehehe. I save around 2 years if i were to go into poly. Hehehehe. Maybe i can consider this option rather than ITE if i were to fail my O levels. Hehehehe.I either will do a business course (which obviously is my last choice) or hospitality course. Any advice people???

till we meet again in a new post....

it's hard to believe that we are together now....

2008-07-21T23:20:00.000+08:00

I have been having weird cravings nowadays. From chocolates to french fries the to burgers and even maggi mee. Hahahaha. Sound so wrong right for me to have cravings at this stage. Hahaha. Maybe it's my hormones or just miss all the junk food ever since i started losing appetite a few weeks ago. Hahahaha. Talking about appetite, i feel like i am eating more right now. I can just eat anything. But at times tkde selera again when i am down or just don't feel like eating. Hehehe. Boleh gitu? I am trying to control my weight for now. I can't remain like this forever. I want to change to a new confident me where i am not afraid of wearing anything that may make me look odd due to my figure since i am big sized. Hahahaha. At least aku mengaku pe. Hehehe. Currently i am starting to drink a detox drink that mum bought. The taste *yuck!!. Like asam2 like that. The mixture is quite thick. Takes time for me to swallow it down. And the side effects? A frequent visit to the toilet!! Big big big business in there. I used to go do it for once a day. But ever since i started drinking this drink i am going like 4 times a day. But it's good pe. Clears away all the toxic in my body. Hehehe. A clean me. Sorry for being disgusting. Its the real fact. I can deny it. Hehehe.

My complexion is getting worse as days pass. Am i having a stress breakout or is because my dirty hands has been touching them??? Hahaha. Or someone has been touching them too often??? Anyone feeling guilty??? Hahahahaha. If you feel guilty please apologize. I am feeling really down with the condition of my face now. It's getting really bad.

Arghhhh!!!!

If only i had a million dollar, i would go for a facial treatment where i can never get pimples and have clear and smooth skin forever. Hahahahaha. Like real only Chika ar... Dream on lah...

Go on to my life recap...

As for today, i was almost late for school since this stomach of mine was giving a call for the toilet as i was about to leave the house. Cannot tahan already so quickly rush to the toilet. Pardon me for being digusting again. Hehehehe. So was as per normal. We had racial harmony celebration today. That idiotic Mr Koh made all of us bring traditional clothes and end up the only ones wearing was 1 couple. How frustrated were the rest including me. And we didn't even win. All the winners were from Sec 4 although it was a sec 4/5 category. How unfair. Judge kayu ar. Stupid dum dum. Hahahaha. Made my way home after school and it was raining. Shoes got wet and some part of my uniform. Took a shower when reched home and slept for awhile since i couldn't go to amy's house when dad is still around. After dad left for work, i went straight to amy's house and lepak there for awhile and then staright we went for silat.

We arrived at masjid around 6.30pm. Changed and did some recap of the syllabus with the others. Hahahaha. Wanted to have Taufik as my tester skali ken Andy siah. Was disappointed for awhile and angry also as andy pissed me off before that. One thing i was not happy when tested is that i can't hear what the hell Andy was talking. He was talking like a mice. Dah lah aku ni pekak sikit. Lain kali cakap kuat sikit ehk. After tested i learned the yellow belt syllabus with Cik Yusoff. Was kind of fun learning with him. Got some jokes. Hehehehe. Not really serious though as people mentioned. Hahahaha. Me and Fahmi thought of taking the test next week skali si Taufik says mass test for yellow belt. Hahahaha. Isn't it cool? Hahahah.. Dad picked me up after silat. Headed home. Ate a bit of mee goreng that is left since i was feeling kind of hungry. I need some proper food though. And when i was in the car, i just realized that i left my tudung in the auditorium. Forgotten to take it along with me. Hahahaha. Asked Naz to keep it for me. Will take it when i have the time to drop by the mosque. So here i am blogging after i am full from all the mee goreng. Yummy!!

I miss my sayang badly. I need hug from him. Hehehehe.

till i blog again in time to come... or even tomorrow...

2008-07-21T11:59:00.000+08:00

To my loyal readers, there been some mix up with the dates in my last post. It was suppose to be Friday 18th July. It was that date and day as it has been saved as draft on Saturday 12th July. This is due to my laziness of wanting to blog. Hahahaha. I have been keeping it as draft since i was unable to finish up the post. Hahahaha. Lazy as always. But not today. I had enough of having to keep my posts as drafts. Hahahaha. Since i have all the free time today, i am going to use it fully. Hehehe. but i am now kind of rajin to actually change back the correct date for your information. Hahahaha.

Yesterday i had to work. Was scheduled for catering. So i reached work a bit late. I took my time to get to work. Was still in a sleepy mood. I thought i was working at 1pm skali that Oyo sms me on friday saying i start work at 11am. How frustrated i was. I thought can sleep a bit more. hahahaha. So at work, while i was doing some catering stuff, Donaliza came to me say i have to run counter at concess since some stupid dum dum didn't show for work at 12. So frustrated. Rush back to the office to get my cash and stuff. Just as i entered concess there was a crowd. I was cursing them badly. Make my life difficult only. There was a big mess in concess after that. Me, syakillah and kak zu had to clean it up. It was girl power that afternoon. Only the 3 of us were working. Hahaha. Luckily concess was closed during catering hours. We slacked!!!! Slowly pop the popcorns and talk here and there. Hahahaha. Then waited till 5pm+++ before i can close. Poor sayang had to wait for me. Hahahaha. I dress up and off i went to meet him. Hehehe. Again we did know where to go before we go and watch our movie 'Hancock'. No choice but to go to PS and walk around. Hahahaha. Then head to Hotdog Factory to grab some food. Was craving for the burgers there. Hahahaha. Then off to the movie. After movie which was awesome, we walked to bugis to catch a train there since we don't want the hassle of changing trains. Sayang send me to my block again this time. As we were walking and talking i just realize that i got the wrong date that we were attached. OMG!! How guilty i am that i do not know the actually date. Hahaha. I die2 thought i was 5th July but sayang said it was 21st June. SO SORRY SAYANG!!!! Hahahaha...

So i am sitting at home today with nothing to do except to study for SS CA4 tomorrow. I feel bored. Not used to sit at home on Sundays as i am always working on sunday.

A review on the movie 'Hancock'

A guy named John Hancock who has supernatural powers. He is strong, able to jump up to the air and fly. Can never get hurt even a train hit him. that's a big WOW!!. At first he was a nuisance to the people although he helped them form the bad guys. He then give himself to the police and then the crime rates went up. Everybody was missing Hancock's help. With help from a friend he was able to control his powers and be nicer towards people. He then found the same kind of him only it's a woman and his friend's wife. He then started losing his powers as the got closer. She even started losing his powers and died. Not wanting to see her die he ran away from her and got his powers back. Lastly he did a good job by helping the police. End of story.

If u guys don't understand the review so sorry. My language is not that good anyway. Hahahaha.

till the next post....

it was nice how you looked into my eyes and said it....

2008-07-18T23:47:00.000+08:00

Sorry for not blogging for the past few days. Been busy or im just kind of lazy to blog.Hahahaha. Boleh gitu?

The purpose of blog is to kind of express everything that is in me. This is how i translate the meaning of blog. So if some people out there that is unhappy over what i have to say in my blog sorry to say LEAVE!!!! If u feel offended or unhappy, you can't do anything about it. So sorry... I have the right to say anything for this is my blog.... No offence to anyone yang akan terasa when i say this. Siapa makan cili dia yang akan terasa pedasnya..

on with the recap....

this is going to be super long.....

Friday

School in the morning as per normal. Nothing special. Eventually the english remedial for the day was only for selected students whom she thinks is the best. How unfair was that. So went to JP with Erah, Dinny, Aoy & Emma. Went to LJS. Talk and laugh all the way. Was in JP with them until 3pm. Then met HIM to treat KFC. Hahahaha. Went home to rest for awhile. Play around the computer but lazy to blog. Hahahaha. Siap2 to go to mosque. Was send by sayang. Instead of going kuliah remaja i wen tto have a bite with the others. Hahahaha. Talk and talk. Eat and drink. Sekali HE called seh. Hahaha. Meet him at he send me to boon lay while he went off somewhere.

Saturday

Woke up around 10. Had plans with sayang to go out. I badly wanted to see him play a soccer match. So he invited me to watch one of his games at Jurong East Sports Complex. Planned to meet up at 11.30 but failed because he was going to be LATE. But nevermind. at least i got to have some breakfast. Hehehe. Meet hinm at 12. Headed to JE Entertainment Centre Mcdonalds. HE had a light lunch while i watched since i was still full. Then went to the Sports complex. Watch him play till about 3+? I guess so. We then head to Changi Airport T3. Go walk around. I was like a jakun at T3. It was my first time in T3 aniway. Cannot be blame. Hahaha. Visited the other terminals too. Then headed to City Hall to catch the fireworks. Found some seats at the long staircase at marina square and sat there till about 10. Home sweet home after that. It was crowded siah. It was the first time sayang send me straight to my block rather then the usually boon lay mrt only. hehehe

Sunday

Woke up very early to go to work. Eventually dad sent me to work. I arrived super early at work. So slacked for a while and had a light breakfast then punch in at 8.45 and start work. Everything was kinf of smooth at work. Everybody was kind of surprised when i said that i am leaving at 3. Hahahaha. Some were even surprised that i can back and work. Hehehe. I kind of extended abit more so end up punching out at 4. So i had to wait for sayang. I waited under the sun till almost 5. Luckily he apologize he was was late kalau tak dah lame aku maki dia atas bawah. Hahahaha. Went PS and have KFC for dinner. I was craving for KFC at that time. Hahahaha. Then we went jalan2 nad then headed home. He sent me to my block again. How sweet right.

Monday

Normal school hours in the morning. Nothing special happen though. Still same boring school hours. Went for silat at night. At first everything was alright until the sparring session with Nur Amirah Bte Amir or AMY. She is one damn violent girl. I learnt my lesson that whenever i wanna fight with her i must always use a vest and a groinguard. She hit me on the so hard that i had difficulty breathing. Thankz a lot yeah Amy. Luckily i was fine. Strong girl mah. Hahahahaha. Everybody was like asking whether i am ok or not. Hehehe. I am Ok as always. I did get my revenge back during the sparring session though. Ambil kau alek. End up i got a blue black on my right knee. As long as i got my revenge its good enough.

Tuesday

Another boring school day. Had my GCE O' level Malay LC in the afternoon. NOt bad. I almost fell asleep while waiting as all the songs that are being played are so slow. Somemore with the cooling environment i can just sleep at my table. Hahahaha. After my exam headed to the pasar malam at JP and bought myself some food. Was hungry. Sayang was angry at me since i can go JP and not meet him. What to do i was in school uniform and he does not want ot meet in that clothing and i was a lazy bum to go home and change.

Wednesday

School in the morning as per normal. Had no remedial for the day. Hahaha. Wish it would be the same for the rest of my days until i finish my O's. Hahahaha. Like real only. Meet up with sayang that afternoon. We spend time for a few hours before he left to go meet up his friend. Hahaha.

Thursday

School again in the morning. Had Combine Humans remedial for only like 20 mins? Cool huh. Had a lot of homework. Thought of meeting up with sayang but due to homework it was cancelled. He then suggested to accompany me do the work at JE library. So i went to do my work and he read malay comics. Hahahaha. After i was done, we went to walk2 at Science Centre which totally has nothing to see. So boring. Then went IMM and got some food and sat at the outdoor playground and eat. He sent me to Boon lay and off he went to his friend wedding.

Today

Went to school as per normal. As i reached felt hungry. So thought of buying the chocolate bun sekali dh abes seh. So went to the malay stall and bought myself a burger. I don't fell satisfied eating the burger since this nose of mine is blocked. i can't taste anything. So frustrated. I had CS remedial after school. The 4 of us who attended was kind of playing around in the lab. Laughing here and there. Then went home. Slack around and sleep. Never go kuliah remaja today as i felt exhausted. Like no energy to go. Anyway shab also never go so i also never go lah. Nobody was able to accompany me. So here i am blogging. Hahahahaha.

I change my blog music to David Cook's - Always Be My Baby. i know some people are using the same song but it's not wrong to use it right??? I am getting attached to the song anyway. Touched my heart. Hehehehe...

I love him badly. Will this last forever or history is going to repeat again??? I have to follow the flow. I can he is really serious in me as all the marriage stuff is out. OMG! Is it too early for me to think about marriage now??? How ehk?? Any advice people???

Always be my baby

2008-07-10T15:07:00.000+08:00

Gosh!!! i am being sick these few days. Always suffering from headaches. What's wrong with me?? Is it a sign that i am going to suffer from illness?? CHOI!!! TOUCH WOOD!!! Cross my fingers that it will happen. It's not easy though to be sick. But what to do. I have to carry on with life although this headaches is making me weak.

Have u guys ever wonder what love actually means to you? I still can't figure out what it means. Maybe i am not experincing it fully yet. I just need the answer.... Do share with me if you are willing to share. Some people are just selfish. Hehehe. No offence. Found this poem from the net. Caught my eye. Hope you guys agree to it the way i do.

I wrote your name in the sky,

but the wind blew it away.

I wrote your name in the sand,

but the waves washed it away.

I wrote your name in my heart,

and forever it will stay.

- Jessica Blade -

Let's do my life recap..... as always....

Yesterday was another normal day. School as usual in the morning. After school did my stuff and out i went to meet HIM. Hehehehe. Was kind of fed-up yesterday. At first he said it was Raffles Place Station. After i exit he said it was City Hall. I was like a fool exiting and actually went in back. Luckily there was a crowd and nobody kind of notice me. I know this will NEVER happen again. Walk2 here and there. Met up his friend to take something then we walk again.Watch people play soccer. Lepak at esplanade then walk to Marina Square and home sweet home. I wondered that night. What so nice about my cheeks? HE like to pinch and play around with it so much. It gets really red at times. HE says it's chubby!! OMG!! Got to loose weight. Hahahaha..

As for today. School in morning as everyday. It was raining heavily today when i went out of the house. Freaking COLD!!! Luckily i was not late. Struck with headache towards the end of school hours. Thought i want to cabot Combine Humans remedial but later found out last minute it was camcelled. hahaha. How happy can a student be when there is no remedial for her. Walked home slowly. Cannot tahan the headache . Reached home wash up and attack the computer. I told by HIM to take a rest but i can't resist the computer. Sorry dear..

till the next post....

2008-07-08T21:56:00.000+08:00

Kind of crazy into changing my blogskin. hahaha. But the previous ones were giving a hard time. Always got problem only. So frustrating. Humph!!! I guess love life is coming back to me again. I am starting it all over again. Why must be it be now?? I just accept it or i will loose a chance of having to experience another love life. Thanks a lot o that someone who is able to open up my heart. Please do take care of it. U will never know what will happen if u mess it up. You will regret for life for what i am going to do. You will be sorry for. Not that i am giving you a threat but everything that is done badly has it's consequences. You should know what i mean.

OK last recap my life once again.

Friday

School hours in the morning as per usual. Nothing special. I had to spend my evening in school for the stupid annual Speech Day. It was damn boring. Wasting my time. The hall was super warm and noisy. The program kind of sucks (pardon me i have to use this word.) We had to sit in the hall for like 3 HOurs like stupid fools. If only i knew that there wasn't any attendance taking, can cabot already. Hahaha.. After the stupid thingy, went to zone 5 silat prac for awhile and watch them train. Was joined by amy later. Hehehe... Went home quite late but nobody seems to care. hahahaha..

Saturday

Woke up quite early. Went to meet up with sayang first before meeting Fityan peeps. Although it was not that long but at least i dun miss him that much. Meet the peeps at boon lay. It was raining and i was wearing white pants and IT GOT DIRTY!!!! I regretted wearing white pants. After picking up everybody, went straight to MWTI ( Madrasah Wak Tanjong Islamiah). Went to see their jubilee there. Can say it was fun. Getting o meet the girls again. Hehehe. Then go makan at Bedok. Followed by lepak at Kent Ridge Park and VIVO. Then the others headed home while i merayap again with sayang. Hehehe.. We went to Lot 1 at CCK and walk2 and sit & talk at McCafe. Then head home. Long day indeed.

Sunday

Went to Johor to with my family. Also to celebrate Irfan's birthday in advance. Mum and uncle sham were busy looking into textiles th whole afternoon. So bored. I felt different not being able to SMS sayang the whole day. Kaku siol. Then went to have seafood at our usual spot. Headed home after that and was caught in jam at Singapore custom. So frustrated. At last after don't know how many hours, i get to hear his voice. How much i missed him. But was frustrated what he did to me. Only god knows.

Monday.

My outing with sayang was great. We went to lunch followed by a movie. Then i went for silat. Which was also great. Not that much of training. Hehehe. Just some recap for white belt. How come this silat is really making me pay so much??? Money here and there. GERAM!!!!!

I was late for school today. Reached school at about 8 am. Had trouble getting up from bed. Had this massive headache and i force myself to get up. I can't take another MC. Have to save up. Endured the headache the entire school hours. Luckily there was no remedials today. So good rite??

ARGHHHHHHHHHHH!!!! I miss him badly although we were separated for a day. It's growing stronger in me. Hope he would appreciate what i am doing now. I don't want another heartbreak. Too much risk to bear.

till the next post comes..

Love is the only force that can change enemies into friends

2008-07-03T17:27:00.000+08:00

I just don't have the time to blog the past few days. Been busy siah. So Muhd Firdaus Bin Suhaimi or FIFI please do understand okay. hahahaha.. I haV been busy as this computer is never free to be used whenever i want to use. ade je pengacau ni. hahaha..everytime want to use my sibuk sister want to use. sape tk fed-up.. so i will do a short recap on what happen to me for the past few days..i guess this post is going to be super long. hehehe...

Starting with.....

SATURDAY
Woke up around 10. Slack around in my room. Ard 1 pm like that went out to meet HIM before im off to work and HIM off to his practice. Go makan with HIM at Bugis then he sent me to work. Hehehe. It was kind of my last day in Sandwich Bar before i take my break from work. Hehehe. And also the last day that i'm going home from work after midnight. Fortunately that night the cab came damn late and we were kind of fed-up about it. Usually i reached home around 2+ instead i reached home at 3+. So more i had to work morning shift the next day.

SUNDAY.
Woke up LATE for work!!!! Me n my sis were like stupid people rushing to get to work. hahaha. but luckily i finished early that day. Suppose to end at 6 but i bargained to end at 4. hehehehe. aniway it's my last day that day. After work went to watch GET SMART with my sayang or HIM at my place. After that went to have dinner at Far East Plaza. Was able to spend time with him on that day as my parents was out at Melaka. Hehehe. Took the opportunity though. hehehe

MONDAY
I was on MC that day. My tummy was giving me problems. I couldn't get out of bed. Visited the toilet often. Conclusion? DIARRHEA!!!! hahaha. Sayang was kind of shock when i told i was on MC. hehehe.. I had to go all the way to Jurong East i have to help papa bank in money at Maybank. So the troublesome. Went to doctor over that side also. After that went jalan2 at IMM. hehehe.. Skali terserempak shab. I was so surprised. then headed home. Rilek2 at home. Kena attack with headache. But slowly gone. hehe. Went for silat at night. So damn frustrated siah. From doing kuncian had to change to regu. Penat2 practice skali tuka. Never inform seh. Then me and amy mcm beloh. Tk tau mcm aner nk uat. SO frustrated seh. So after silat went to eat at the mamak shop at CC and was send home by Din.

TUESDAY
Normal school day for me. hehehe.. in the evening meet up with my sayang and went to have dinner with him at Jurong Easr Bagus! hehehehe...

WEDNESDAY
Normal school day also. Had to attend F&B meeting at work. Sayang fetched me and send me there. So poor thing that he has to wonder off somewhere while i have the meeting. Luckily he bumped into his friend. HAhahha. The meeting was delayed till 8.30. So me, amalina,zul and ramli went to ben&jerry to indulge in their ice-cream. hehehehe.. had a great time.. then the meeting headed by sham. Sayang fetch me again and i accompany him to go eat at KFC. Then home sweet home.

TODAY
i was so nervous today. it was my O'level MT oral. I was talking crap to the examiner. Hope she does not penalise me seh. hehehe. The outing for this saturday has been changed a bit. Not eating at Han River but somewhere else. hehehehe.. Monday is a holiday. me and sayang are planning what to do on that day. hahahaha. if you guys got any ideas where we can go please suggest it to me. I really need to figure out where to go!!!!! Change my blogskin since the last one was giving me problems. Harapkan lawa jek. Hope u guys like the new one. hehehehe.. I'm kind of having doubts. Am i officially together with him? Please tell me sayang..Im curious!!!!

kk. till the next post comes...

when you hold me in your arms, i know that it's forever....

2008-06-27T22:36:00.000+08:00

Today is a very slacking day for me. i was slacking all the way in school especially during physics lesson. Didn't bother to listen to whatever the teacher was talking about. I just did not have the mood to study today. Hehehehe. Was almost late this morning. Luckily the gate was not closed yet when i was about to enter. It has been closing very early this term. Because it i have a late record in the first week of the term. Whoever made this rule is really very stupid. Can't they give a chance to their own students? We want to study and not having late-coming records you know. Really a bunch of stupid people. Somemore the councillors think they are so big like that handling late-commers. So what? Mostly are the juniors. Even the OM is a junior. I'm more senior in the school ok!! Mr Raja was much better than the stupid old hag Mr Chan. At least he does not shout at us but talk in a nice way. Dah tua uat hal tua ar. Menyampah betol org mcm gini. hahahahaha. I prefer how the school was run before and not now. The system now totally sucks siah!! Making life more difficult in school.

So after school i went straight home since there is no activities and i'm too lazy to step my foot in the band room. Maybe not stepping in there till investiture i guess. Hahahaha... First thing i came back was to switch on the computer..Hehehe.. Change and clean up then attacked the computer..

Was talking to sayang in msn. He msg me earlier saying he wants to quit his current job. Asked him why and the topic carried on in msn. And while in msn we talk and talk till it came to an intereting topic. CONFESSION!!! He confessed to me. I was taken by surprise for a moment and started asking more questions. Although it sounds that his confession was serious but my heart does not say so. Maybe i have not really felt it. Hehehehe..

Wanted to go for kuliah remaja today with shab but unfortunately she was in KL. how could she go without informing me. so was planning to go alone until sayang offered to fetch. how sweet was he. always fetching me. hehehe.. how can i reject his offer. i can't simply resist him you know.. hahaha.. so met him at JP Sportslink since he wanted to buy some stuff there.. Then off to interchange. Wanted to take bus 30 skali ade bdk2 dia lah. Then we headed for 178. The same situation. Decided to take taxi instead skali banyak org pulak. hahaha. then he and his crazy idea we take mrt drop at lakeside. hahaha. Then thought of taking taxi skali npk bas. Penuh pulak. Line up lagi untuk taxi. Hahahaha. Take taxi to masjid.

Niat nk g kuliah remaja end up tk pergi. Instead i sat at frontdesk with kak dila and help naz do some of his werk. I found out that the topic today was rather boring so tak pergi ar. hahaha. And i talk and talk with kak dila and abg zul. Si abg zul ni pulak dh mcm terpikat dgn si shab. tau aku tk kenalkan kalo dah jad mcm ni. hahahaha. So i went home together with sayang and had to do some cover up. hehehehe. i hugged him like mad in the bus as it was freaking cold!!!! End up we were the only ones on the bus when we reached boon lay. hehehe.. how cool was that.. so we said our goodbye and hugs and ehem! in the bus. tknk attract attention pat interchange..hehehehe..

When i reached home it was a food galore. so much food and my favourite ayam percik and oreo donut was there. mama bought. hehehehe.. like she knows i'm hungry..hahaha... so here i am now updating..

enough for now.. till tomorrow comes..

By the way i found this info about kissing on the net. To those who i have been asking here's more info for you. Hope you guys find it useful...

Kiss on the hand - I adore you.

Kiss on the cheek - I just want to be friends.

Kiss on the neck - I want you.

Kiss on the lips - I love you.

Kiss on the ears - Let's have some fun.

Kiss on the nose - Let's get silly.

Kiss anywhere else - You're the best

2008-06-26T21:42:00.000+08:00

Whoa! today in school was a record seh. i did not fell asleep during lessons. hahahaha.. it's a good improvement though.. today can say i can concerntrate much more in class compared to the past days in school. guess i got my full sleep not like the other days. Hahahahaha. i don't even have remedials today. isn't it great??? i wish everday was like this. not sleepy in class and no remedials after school. yeah i wish so... hahahaha.. so last nite HE msg me saying that he miss me.. yeah i miss u too sayang although we were only separated for only a day. i find it kind of funny when he suddenly msg me like this " SAYANG! MISS YOU!.. hehe" . i was taken by surprise for a while. and then i laugh. so HE suggested to meet up with me today. secara kebetulan no remedial so i took the chance ar since i won't be seeing him for the next few days. hahahaha...

Going out with HIM today seems a bit different from the other outing with him. i felt something wrong with HIM. HIS hug and ehem! towards me is getting a bit different. HIS hugs are getting more tight and more of the ehem!. hahahaha.. just understand what ehem! means. i'm not elaborating it.hahahaha.. i guess his getting more serious in me or his expecting something in return from me???? hmmmm... never mind.. i will just go with the flow i guess... btw he kind of said in the bus today that i'm his matae??? hahaha.. don't know if he is really serious in saying that...sayang, when will it be shown???? haix.. guess i still have to wait.. sorry to the people who adviced me for not listening to u guys.. i know that u guys know what's best for me.. but sometimes i need to follow what my hearts says.. maybe if i can totally see HIS true colours someday then i may want to seek your help again although it's too late i guess...

on the way hoem today after sayang send me to interchange, i wanted to see how pioneer zone 8 silat team was. Also wanted to see if any of my mates were there to have extra training. Too bad nobody went. hahahaha.. so i was standing at the traffic waiting for the green man ( see how good i am). i caught a glimpse of andy. he kind of like staring at me siah. takut sekejap aku. hahahaha... so after i cross i walk pass the MPH and he stare at me. kind of surprise and all that i did was smiled at him back and walk off. terlalu malu untuk pandang belakang sih..
so as i walking home after walking pass zone 8, there's this two mat on their bicycle kacau me. want to ride or want to kacau seh. skali langgar pokok aru padan muke.. hahahahaha.

now nobody wants to layan me.. my family with their world. saynag watching movie with his friend. hahahaha. lucky got some nice people from msn who wants to talk to me. hahahaha.. thank u guys...

ok. think i will stop here. enough already.. sambung bsk ehk..

2008-06-25T21:25:00.000+08:00

wow! it has been ages since i last blog here. hahahaha. sorry folks..hehehe.. my computer has been givng me problems.. now it has been fixed and all ready to use although it still lag at certain times..

life has been better since i last blog but lately my mind is being disturb. Is it about school? Family? Werk? Or HIM? (i'm not revealing who the HIM is. For those who know. keep it to urself)

I guess it's school and HIM. I feel like not studying anymore. The passion for studying is no longer there. But i have to continue. I need that O' cert after all to continue my life. And also to make my parents happy. Guess i'm beong distracted by werk and the outside world. By the way i'm now werking at The Cathay Cineplex as a part-time CSO. I'm being paid $4.50 per hour (which is totally pathetic but what to do i need the money). Okay back to my story.

As for HIM. I can't find the answer whether he is really serious in me or just using me. I need a sign from u sayang. U r not showing it to me. Although it takes time but i just can't wait. Time is precious u know. Days passed and we are kind of getting stronger. I getting more attached to you. Please don't play around with me. It's good you know. Stick to your words please. I would really appreciate it.

ok.. guess it ends here for today.. maybe another post for tommorrow?

2007-11-27T14:50:00.000+08:00

sorry to my blog fans for not updating for a very long time. sorry to fifi and myra since you guys are th loyal ones who kept looking at my blog. hahahahaha.
got so many things to say but i have so little time to type it all out. i will just type the recent events that happen. like yesterday was the last day of my madrasah for me. actually the last day is next week but im not coming since i have a camp to attend to. Fifi was really sad since we may never see each other again. hahahaha. but insya-allah we may meet some time in the future. anyway we have each other nye contact pe. mcm tkleg SMS atau call gitu.
next week im going to a camp organize by Fityan. hahahahaha.
sorry if this is too short. im running out of time..
anything just tag me.

2007-11-01T17:51:00.000+08:00

ok i won't be able to able to blog regurlarly as my com has broken down. Have been wanting to fix it but got no time at all. hehehehe.
i just realize how boring the extended term was. Just sit facing the screen listen to my teacher and do documentation, create tables here and there and more boring stuff. And i also got to know if i don't do well for the extended term, i won't be able to take CS next year. how cool is that. The extended term is just WASTING MY TIME!!!!!!! But at least i get to learn a few things.
I was sick this past few days since i returned from KL. i was caught with fever, a nasty flu and a very bad cough. I was coughing like my whole throat is going to come out. Mum nag at me for eating to much of tidbits + kuih raya and minum banyak sangat air batu. I just shut my ears.
The second raya outing was very BORING!!!!! as shab didn't tag along as she was in KL. Got to know that from syafiq just a few days before the trip. how could she not tell me herself. Luckily she called me the next day. Wait till she gets back from KL. I was still suffering from the cough in the outing. aku carik nahas betol sebab dah tau sakit masih sebat air sejuk. hehehehe. thank god mum didn't find out. Band peepz ask me to follow them go jalan raya on the same day but they told me last minute so no choice bu to reject their invitation since im going out with my classmates.
On tuesday me alysa bibi and shukri cleaned up the library cupboard in band room. It was a mess but we manage to clean half of it as we ran out of boxes that alysa has bought. So after cleaning we went to IKEA at Queenstown to buy bigger boxes as thats the only place where they sell cheap boxes. After finding we jalan2 around IKEA macam orang baru beli rumah and nak beli furniture gitu. We were sort of trying all the furniture until we saw Mr Singh and of course we hide from him as we were in school uniform. hahahaha. We planned to go to Sentosa next week but only about 15 of us. The frustrating part is that Shukri blurt out everything to someone. Now i have to keep the outing low profile. what a nuisance he is. Rosak plan orang aje lah.
To Muhd Firdaus Bin Suhaimi or know better as FIFI please stop saying you miss me. i know it already for a long time. hahahahahahaha.
To my dear sis Myra stay strong always. This is just a dugaan for you. Remember what i always told you and what was it? i think i have forgotten. hahahahahaha.
To the people out there, treasure your love ones. They are the ones that will stay by your side.

2007-10-26T16:58:00.000+08:00

thankz to my abg my blog looks nicer now. hehehehe. don't know what i can do with this blog without him.
life is the same. only now that i just have too much free time to spare although i have extended term for computer studies that i think is unfair as i may not be coming back next year but hopefully i can lah. i also have to attend band practice which i don't know whether i want to go or not. if i am not going means im lazy or i think it's unfair not getting a new instrument after using the current one for like 2 years. how can they not pass down to me but to my junior. im still a senior seh. i still have one more year to go if i pass my N level lah.. they can say "i thought you are not coming back next year". never mind. if i don't come don't blame me. kalau aku dah merajuk tkde yang boleh pujok tau. i want to do the performance at esplanade but must see how the keadaan first lah. i kind of miss band and my juniors although some of they dislike me. but what can i do. this just the way i am. you guys can chage who i am .
the first jalan raya this year with my peepz was somesort a disaster since we kind of had a fight and misunderstanding with some people. end up we jalan raya with 13 boys and 3 girls. a cool number rite? hahahaha.
me shab and myra are getting closer by the day. shab is getting closer to me y the day too. but now she is more prettier all thankz to me. hahaha. prasaan jugak aku ni ehk. but seriously she now knows how to where contact lens and she re-shape her eybrow although it made her look like a minah. hehehehe.
i want to go out and work like all my friends did but mama won't let me as she tak nak ape terjadi kat kakak ko jadi kat kau. how unfair rite. she gets to work after her N's but i don't. as always said life is unfair. i will just stick at home becoming a potato couch until my results around mid-december. HuH? RESULTS? hopefully i son't cry that day if i were to fail. luckily my dad has given the green light to enter ITE. just waiting for my mum to give her green light. that's all that i need. i intend to take up nursing just like my sister if it's possible.
ok i will stop here. here are some photos from RAYA 2007.

my and my sister in pink. 2nd day.

mummy and anak dara.

happy family.

the jalan raya before 3 girls went away.

me shab and myra.

myra and me.

4na4

2007-10-19T18:07:00.000+08:00

i know i said to myself that i would not open up a blog again. but things change. i need to say out everything whether good or bad. i do remind the readers not to be sensitive to what i am going to blog in the near future. I am a very straight forwaed person now. i have change. no more keeping secrets to myself. it's not nice keeping it to myself anymore. hahahahahaha.
whoever whom had my links pls tell me and also change my link. i need to make some changes now.